April 10, 2014


I feel like I'm trapped in a bottle.  My exuberance, my ideas, my creativity are restrained, and the harder they try to get out, the more they're held down.  I can't let them out because then I won't be doing the things that I am supposed to be doing, like my schoolwork.  And yet, I am somehow unable to channel them into my schoolwork even when the schoolwork interests me.

Why am I afraid of letting myself out?  Is it because I'm afraid people won't like who I am?  Is it because I'm afraid that I won't do the things I am supposed to?